Reasons I’m a Giant Ball of Stress

It’s been awhile since I wrote. I’ve been so overwhelmed with all the stuff going on in my life, I haven’t had any time to update and I apologize. So I figured now was a good time to update you and check in to see how I am doing on my New Year’s Resolutions for 2015 – one month in.

New Year’s Resolutions for 2015:

Run a Half Marathon – on January 15th I officially signed up for the Seattle Rock n’ Roll Half Marathon. I’ve been running between 3-4 times a week and am slowly increasing my distance. I know I should buckle down and get serious so I’m not scrambling a month out to get ready but lately I feel as if I shouldn’t be doing anything but homework so I feel as if getting a run in is a luxury. However, I know that if I didn’t, I would eventually go from happy to ape shit in 2 seconds. So to de-stress and save the lives of many innocent people – I sacrifice some time.

Post de stress run

Stay healthy – despite my busy schedule I’ve been finding time for running and the gym and I still feel great.

Eat healthier – some days are better than others. Taking Nutrition – even though I hardly retain much information – is subconsciously helping me to make better decisions. Today has not been a good day.

Dominate school – I constantly feel like I’m drowning although I don’t think I’m doing as terribly as I thought I was!

Save money – No money saved right now. As soon as I start working more hours and can pay off this quarter’s tuition, hopefully I can start saving….for next quarter’s tuition – ugh.

Two of my friends and I sitting in the car before the exam. Eating almonds to calm us down – still nervous and excited. Hopeful. All 3 of us failed.


My classmate and I – she was one of the lucky 2 who passed. She definitely deserved it.

Pass my nursing assistant state test on Jan 16th! – Fail. It’s still difficult for me to talk about without getting worked up. I went down there and half my class was there that day taking the exam as well. We all passed our written, but all of us – except 2 – failed the practical part. The first thing most people said to me was “That’s on your instructors” – but trust me, it isn’t. Most of my classmates were failed for the most ridiculous things – and the thing that really pisses me off is the guy I was paired with did 4 things (that I could tell) wrong and he was passed! Where is the justice in this world? Our issue’s lay with the women who gave us the exam. My re-test is February 14th – so here’s hoping.

Acquire a nursing assistant job – this will be in the works once I pass my state exam…on Feb 14th!

Volunteer – done! I’ve been volunteering at Northwest Hospital since last week and today was my 3rd day. I seriously love it and am learning so much about the hospital. My fellow volunteers are either retired who are looking for ways to give back or – most of them – are nursing students like me. And we ALL go to the same school. It’s amazing.

Stay awesome – I’m trying – and some days I think it takes a lot more.

Cut stress – this is just a fail. A horrible, horrible fail. Between work, school, volunteering, family crap – I have no time for a social life and no time is really devoted to relaxing. My shoulders are constantly tense, my head hurts and I’m afraid I’m a nightmare to Matt. My only saving grace is when he told me the other night “You didn’t know me in college”. I don’t know if I forget what it’s like to be in school and this is how I was or if I’m seriously on the brink of insanity. Regardless, I can’t wait to be done with Math..

Drink less – you’d think with all the stress in my life I’d be drinking more. On the contrary. If I’m doing homework on a Friday night with a beer in my hand – it’s a hell of a lot harder to understand what the hell I’m doing than if I were drinking tea. What’s the point in “relaxing” with a drink when I’m never relaxing anyway?

Love more – I love so much. All the people putting up with my insanity – I love you.

LIVE – failing. But I still have 11 months to figure it out.

Stay relaxed Seattle…

3 thoughts on “Reasons I’m a Giant Ball of Stress

  1. Hey lady! I’m so sorry things have been so stressful for you lately. Hopefully everything will calm down for you soon. It’s good that you’re still taking time out to run and exercise, because it will definitely calm you down and help you deal with the stress. I’m glad to hear that you’re enjoying volunteering and liking all the things you’re learning though. You’ve accomplished so much in such a short amount of time, so you should take a break from beating yourself up and give yourself a little credit for how far you’ve made it so far. Doing what you’re doing takes a lot of guts so props to you! I miss you chickadee! Good luck studying and with your retake!

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